...Waiting is hard. A lot of time is spent waiting when you are trying to adopt. And it can be downright agonizing at times. Imagine the last week or two of pregnancy times six months? a year? two years? Waiting on papers, waiting on government officials, court dates...the list seems endless... God seems to delight to use the waiting though, so it's never wasted. When we wait on government officials to do their jobs in assuring that our child isn't being trafficked, it is an opportunity to love others like we love ourselves. (We wouldn't want our children to be trafficked if it was us living in poverty, so we don't want others treated that way either!) God also uses the waiting to dig a fertile ground for attachment, to give us a mama-bear tendency to fight for our child, and to give us the good gifts of more trust in God to move mountains, and more patience and hope...which are always good qualities for one's soul to possess more of.
|Finally the waiting was over! They were in our arms and it felt so so good!|
...Attachment may take a very long time. For some reason this surprised me with our first adoption. I thought that after a year had passed with not much attachment to show for it, that I had failed. I thought that it would never happen. Turns out it just took a lot longer than the timeline I had in my head...as in three years or so (and going). Adoptive moms, let's throw out our ideas of a nice neat timeline and go with God's. It's so much more beautiful that way.
|Those first smiles were very hard to come by, but this was a precious one that encouraged me during those months.|
|This girl, now my darling daughter, has a whole history, but we are still trusting God as he weaves our stories together.|
|That smile was weak because of the wind and because of how stinkin hard it was.|
|I love it that these guys love to cook! That didn't come from our apple tree! Haha!|
|Celebrating the finish line in Uganda. Celebrations don't last, but this commitment? It's forever.|
|Adoption is as beautiful as this girl's smile.|